I had good intentions today, I really did. Had my outfit all picked out, was up bright and early. But things did not go as planned. The light was terrible, my daughter was cranky and my husband was running late — all of which resulted in a very brief and unproductive photo shoot for me this morning.
This was my take on today's Style Me April prompt, "Matchy Matchy," with my scarf matching my pants and my sweater matching my shoes. I actually wore this outfit a few weeks ago but never blogged it, so I decided to give it another go.
Since I don't have a lot of photos to share, I thought I would post about something else that's been on my mind. And, honestly, if you're just here for pictures of pretty clothes, I won't be mad if you just decide to stop reading. But I feel like it's important for me to say this, so here goes:
Part of what held me back for a long time from doing daily outfit photos was the feeling that I wasn't pretty enough to be a fashion blogger. But then I decided, screw everything about that, I am who I am and I'm not ashamed of that. So I'm doing it. However, I'm also conscious of the fact that most of the other women I see posting their daily outfits are about 10 years younger than me, and I'm not going to lie: Sometimes I feel old and dumpy.
But, we all have our hang-ups, right? I guess the important thing for me is to not let those hang-ups stop me from doing what I want to do. So I'm going to go right on posting photos of my crow's feet and gnarly hands (seriously, I have the hands of an 80-year-old) and other features that are less than glamorous, because that is who I am. These things don't make me a "real woman" because, of course, all women are real. But they are part of me.
Some people have asked me, why post outfit photos in the first place? The thought being that it's a vapid and narcissistic exercise. And maybe it is for some people, I don't know. But for me, it's something more. I wrote a column for the newspaper a few weeks ago in which I said, "I’m not going to pretend that I don’t derive creative satisfaction from putting together a knockout outfit. To someone else, it may just be so many ladies in pretty dresses. For me, it’s as close as I can get to creating art. And I’m not one bit ashamed of that." (You can read the whole column here.)
I guess what I'm trying to say is that for me, fashion is a really important tool for personal expression, and I'm trying to embrace what I can do with it instead of feeling self-conscious about what I can't. Thanks for listening, and I would love to hear your thoughts about what fashion means to you.